These things rekindle the spark every time I am with you. It sweeps away all my worries and restores those with the warmth of your love. That easy and light feeling that draws a smile in my lips and paints glimmer in my eyes. But after you broke up with me, what is love through the eyes of a person who has been dumped? How do I see relationship now?
For the first 6 months, I miss everything we do, you do for me or I do for you. Our journey together is the greatest story of true love. I do not understand why a love this special just faded away.
For the second half of the year, I realize love is beyond the state of "falling in love" and "being in love".
Love is more than the flowers, chocolates, ice cream, cake, fruits and gifts you give to surprise me;
It is knowing that someone I care about a lot cares about me too.
Love is beyond being novena buddies or visiting different churches with you;
It is believing that someone wishes my wishes and dreams my dream.
Love is not just watching GOT marathon or seeing feel good movies with me;
It is imagining ourselves for a happy never-ending.
Love is not merely stuffing our stomach until full as we satisfy cravings for lomi and other street food,
It is realizing that the best appetizer is laughter shared with you.
Love is not simply about travelling out of towns and having the pictures posted in Facebook;
It is about discovering each others' personality - how we appreciate nature, pay interest to outdoor activities, deal with strangers, react in an inconvenient accommodation, respond to an itinerary gone wrong and yes, even how we tolerate each other's snore as we drift off after an adventure-filled day.
Love is not only about killing time back at home;
It is recognizing that no time is wasted if spent by two people enjoying each other's company.
Love is not purely burning mobile lines every night,
It is understanding that we have each other, just there listening at the end of the line - laughing at our corniest jokes, paying attention at our day-to-day stories, sympathizing at our down moments, encouraging from our personal failures, learning from our inevitable mistakes, rejoicing our little triumph and planning our promising future.
Love is not barely defined by how tight we hold hands and how many hugs, kisses & i love you's we do;
It is feeling genuinely wanted, appreciated, accepted and loved. It is believing that with me is my answered prayer, my "the one" and trusting that you feel exactly the same.
A year after the heartbreak,this is how my perspective on relationship evolves.
Love and Relationship are both a choice. It is surely easy to keep the relationship going and stay magically in love when things are happy, fun and uncomplicated.It is however, evident more clearly when things are off track.
I remember the time when I cannot fully understand why my love is not enough to sustain our relationship and why my effort is fruitless. I finally figured out the answer.
Love and relationship are choices, only the latter requires to be mutual. I chose you, but you didn't choose me - and that ended my favorite love story.
Can I still then love you without a relationship? I guess yes, only in a different form. Because love is also choosing to let go. No matter how much I want to keep you around me, no matter how much i wish you to stay, no matter how much it kills me to see you leave, I have to let you go.
Probably, letting go is the most selfless but the most excruciating form of love. I still do not know how, but I just know I have to. I am letting you go now because I love you.
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