The trip was so much fun. I exchanged smile, nod and engage to some small chat to people I hardly knew. This isn’t me but it’s not yet too late to get a bit sociable I think.
Looking back, I couldn’t say I was able to completely forget about him as much as I wanted to, but there were 5 surprising things I have realized in Sagada:
1. I can pack my stuff and carry my own bag.
Good thing my officemates’ birthday gift was a bag organizer. It works wonders! When I would just throw my clothes off since I knew someone’s going to pick it up, this time I folded them neatly so it will be easier for me to pack when leaving.
And since there’s no one around to help me with my luggage, I carried them without ranting. Yeah it’s heavy, (the idea of packing light still puzzles me) but I can manage the weight on my back. I am stronger now.
2. I can nurse myself.
We trekked to Big Falls between rain showers and scorching heat. I wrapped myself with plastic bag to avoid getting wet and then remove them when mr. sun drains the sweat out of me. When we got back to our accommodation, I ensured I took medicine because I felt like am going to catch colds and fever.
The next day, we did spelunking and as expected I had my share of bruises and scratches. When I would just let the blood dripping until “he” cleans the wound, this time I ran to my first aid kit upon my return and attended to my personal emergency.
3. I love mountains.
Mountains for me are boring; beaches are cool! Just when I thought I would just sleep all the way there, I was actually wide awake enjoying the view while Katy Perry songs were played in background. The sunlight, the tress, never ending trees and shadows – everything was perfect!
4. Someone can still be concerned about me even if he is not my boyfriend.
I have known this person since we are 7 years old. But we never really became close. He used to have his own circle of friends and I have mine. We talk, yes but never the “buddy buddy type” up until I shared to him my failed fairy tale story (By the way, he is bf’s bestfriend and our supposed “best man”.).
Going back, he asked for the name of my companion going to Sagada. He called me just to check if I was doing okay. He even gave me the “ultimate kicking tip” if ever some guy advances while I am asleep.
Being acrophobic makes me shrug at the idea of trekking and spelunking. But I didn’t want to miss them too. Whenever my knees tremble from fear of heights, fear from sliding, fear from falling, I would call my new friend and he was always willing to give a hand. Upon our return from the falls, it was already dark, and I can’t seem to notice which one is the danger side, everything is pitch black… Stopping is also not an option. He held my hand tightly and calmed me when he feels am shaking. He also checked on me if I was feeling hungry or uncomfortable. He was really nice to me.
So there, I used to think being single means no one’s going to care for me anymore. These wonderful people made me think twice. Just glad I have them around.
5. I can have FUN!
Whenever I go to somewhere nice, I always wish bf was there too. I always feel incomplete whenever I don’t get to share wonderful stuff with him. But while I was there, I feel so free. No more wishing he was there, no more hoping he can see the things I see and experience the things I enjoy.
I am just happy I went there.
